I find myself at a crossroads in my life right now.
I gave up my job as a nanny last month to try and find something else, yet so far I’ve had no luck.
Now I find myself really missing the family I worked with and I’m really down trodden by rejections and no replies for job opportunities.
I am finding it harder than I originally thought the be away from the children, but I worried that if I stayed with them I would never have left, and I would have a degree in Creative Writing and not be doing anything with it. But I gave them three years of my life and they were some very special years for me.
The Franke’s saw me through my degree, my 21st birthday, my house hunting issues, my friendship fall outs, break ups, being sad and some other very important happenings in my life.
And vice versa, I heard Flossie’s first word, watched her first steps, looked after her through her first tummy bug and taught her how to use a knife and fork. I’m going to miss taking Esme for hot chocolates and picking Henry up from the bus stop. I already miss Freya talking my ear off about everything.
I had hoped that I would have found a new job by now, something that would fill the void that’s been left in me, but so far I haven’t, and I’m depressed.
Does anyone have any advice that might help me find my motivation again? I’m at a loss here.